Please pray for me. I don't like asking for prayer. I was going to write a status on facebook, but I realized I had more to say than I could fit in a status and frankly I would rather write it in here because I feel like a lot of people just wouldn't get it. I mean no disrespect by saying that. I just know that a lot of people would have written back "what's wrong?" I don't think I would doubt their sincerity. It's just not that easy to explain.
I feel broken. I haven't felt like this in quite a while. I know the Bible says do not be anxious, but I have a lot of anxiety right now. Its not like I feel too far away from God or anything like that. I don't doubt my salvation or the existence of a holy triune God. Just today yeah I feel a lot of past mistakes and procrastination and just sins in my life. It makes me feel so unworthy. Without God's grace I wouldn't even be able to write this.
I wasn't planning on writing this blog until very recently today. I just know that the power of prayer works. I feel really tired and worn down by my own flesh. I'm also way more nervous that I would like to admit about this new job. I know I have the skills, the personality, and the character to be successful at this job. I guess I am just afraid of the unknown. I know that I need to trust in God's sovereignty, but just recently its been harder than usual to do so.
If you have the time, please pray that we may all feel the overwhelming joy and peace that can only be found in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Pray that we may be able to trust Him even with the smallest of things in our lives. I know all too well that things don't always work out the way I want them to so if you say a prayer for me just pray that I will be able to have strength in Him.
Thank you for reading this and I hope all is well.
Grace and Peace
Sean
Sean, I'll be praying for you. We all go through times like this. It seems that satan knows just how and when to attack - he loves to discourage us and render us ineffective and unable to keep our focus on the truths that we know. satan has a hint of the work that God wants to do in and through you in this new job and in this new place. He wants to stop it if he can... he wants to minimize what God has planned in your life. Grab a hold of the TRUTHS of Christ that you know. You are precious to Him. He has plans for your life that He put into motion long ago. He is with you as you go to this new job and start this new chapter. You are "a unique, one-of-a-kind, unrepeatable, never-to-be-seen-again, created-in-the-image-of-God miracle!" (as Dr. Kathy Koch would say) God has been preparing you for this job, this day, for a long time. When you don't feel His presence, grab on to the TRUTH that He is with you always. And remember Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go" Take strength in Him!!!
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